everything changes september 9th.

writing a book is a funny thing, and a much longer process than i ever would have imagined. in my experience, it goes a little something like this:

  • spend 21-ish years living your life. 
  • decide that you have an idea for a story that maybe other people would want to read, possibly?
  • start writing the book! which means writing down random ideas and starting in a place that is definitely not the beginning, because why would that make any sense?
  • abandon book because no one is going to read it. also, you don't have time for this.
  • live your life for a while longer.
  • casually, wistfully, mention to people your idea for a story and hear people say, 'hey, that would be a great book!' and then feel bad about abandoning said book.
  • get back to writing a book.
  • have a baby. stop writing for a very, very long time as you attempt to keep said baby alive.
  • move, because that's always fun.
  • remember you're turning 30 and you were going to have this godforsaken book done by the time you were 28, spend a few months writing (not very good work) every moment you can prop your eyes open/husband can watch the baby.
  • have another baby, because why not?
  • have a very bizarre, ill-timed but overall simply wonderful burst of creativity and positivity when second baby is born, start brainstorming approximately one hundred creative projects, one of which is attempting to collect 20 rejection letters, because, again, that's always fun. right?
  • in an attempt to get a 'no,' you get a 'yes,' and this 'yes' is the biggest push you will ever get, and beyond explanation you are able to take advantage of this 'yes.'
  • spend a week on martha's vineyard with incredibly talented and successful writers who push you and help you and make you think and cry and finish your book.
  • cry, jump into the ocean, simultaneously if possible.
  • spend five months NOT looking at the book because even though the first draft is done you kind of hate it.
  • hire a nanny.
  • read and edit the book, which means you now have a second draft. huzzah! 
  • have people you trust explicitly read your draft and give you insightful feedback.
  • make said changes. 
  • wonder if they are enough, spend too much time doubting yourself before finally sending second draft to an editor to help.
  • bite fingernails for one month until draft is returned.
  • find an incredibly talented artist to design the cover.
  • make changes said editor suggested.
  • look at cover art and giggle at how it is exactly what you wanted.
  • spend approximately 14,354 hours formatting the book.
  • realize in this time you have no idea how to market book, so seek the help of a professional marketing genius.
  • order book proof in two different colors because you're indecisive, with two different font sizes for the interior.
  • choose the outside of one but the inside of the other, which of course is not easy to change. spend lots of days waiting for UPS person outside on front porch with a drink in hand.
  • finally have the book delivered to you, realize it is THE FINAL PROOF, drink champagne and cry lots and lots inexplicably.
  • spend three months marketing the book/planning a book launch party people besides you will actually want to attend.
  • wait for the launch, very impatiently.
  • attend launch, mingle, dance, drink, and generally celebrate because look at all these steps you had to get through to get there! 

so, here we are. the end. or, at least, the last three bullet points of this whole writing-a-book experience. and then everything changed officially launches september 9th. there will be a party. there will be booze. there will be excessive instagrams. 

it's been such a privilege to make it this far. i know so many manuscripts die in their author's desk drawer, half-written. i'm so, so grateful that this didn't happen to mine.

and while we are on this subject, lots of people have been asking me if i've found a publisher. short answer? yes. it's me. the book is going to be self published. and no that isn't exactly the author's dream. but i've been working on this book for longer than i care to admit (though i just did, but whatever) and i'm ready to hold it in my hands, to see it on my bookshelf. i'm not giving up hope that it'll find a publisher to pick it up at some point, but not right now. right now, it's not my priority. 

thank you all for reading, for your continued support and encouragement. it's been one of the biggest surprises along the way.